The Voice inside Me
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posted : Sunday, February 01, 2009
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So fast, today is already the 7th day of chinese new year. This year's new year is spent very differently compared to the past, because it's the first year without grandma.

These few weeks, or months maybe.. She just came to my mind all a sudden and she may stay there for the whole day. Words that she said, I can remember so clearly.. just like she's telling me right beside my ear.

Today, my sister told me about my aunt's condition when she went to visit her at the hospital with mum yesterday. my aunt somehow shouted at my sister, asking her to ask my dad to fetch my grandma to bring her away. Sis said that she started mumbling.. and even asked why am i not there. Sigh. I felt so bad not visiting her.

My aunt said my grandma is only free on saturdays and sundays, and she even asked why was my grandma naked. So, did my aunt really saw grandma? How did she even know my grandma fell in the toilet naked, when I supposed no one told her about it? Then, she asked us if we sold our car away.. only our family knows about this matter, how did she even get to know abt it? Was my grandma the one who told her? Sigh.. Seeing her like this pains me. She kept saying she's feeling terrible, she's being a burden to her husband and daughters.. She hopes to leave as soon as possible, rushing my grandma to bring her away.

Dearest god, I hope you lift the pain from her so that she can leave peacefully without having to scream everyday. I hope my grandma is living good in another world. I miss grandma.

Goodnight.